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OUIDA'S NEW TALE.3 OTHMAR. CHAPTER XXXVIII.—(CONTIKOBD.) The one great love of his life had been ao lony his only pre-occupation, his only idolatry, that it hurt him with a sense of loss and of insult to think that to others it would seem as though HE had been faithless to it. Even the sense which was present to his own heart and mind, that such infidelity might perchance become possible to him, humiliated him in his own eyes and made him feel a weak, irresolute, mutable fool. Perhaps she is right enough to disdain me 1" he thought with impatience of himself. His thoughts were far more with her than with Damaris; and yet the poor child's welcome of him sunk into his heart with a sense of warmth and of sympathy to which he had long been a stranger. Her very personal beauty, too, seemed to retain in it the glow of her own suns, and to give to those who looked on it a vivifying warmth and radiance. He felt as though, in leaving the presence of his wife for her's, he had come out of the cool, pale luminance of moonlight, shining on the classic limbs of a marble goddess, into a sun- lit and fragrant garden, with birda at play mongst boughs of wild roses. Absorbed in his own meditations, his words hwere dreamy and spoken with effort, his abstrac- tion affected the sensitive nerves of his com- panion and cast a chill upon her buoyant and ardent nature. She grew silent, and watched him with eyes passionate with gratitude and dim with tears. She saw in him the saviour of her life, the lord of all her thoughts, her only friend; she longed to throw herself at his feet and strive to tell him all she felt. But she could not, she dared not; there was something in his voice, in his gaze, in the mere fact of his presence, which daunted and held her dumb. In his absence she had repeated to herself a thousand times the eloquent words with which she would tell him all she felt; but now that he was there before her she was mute. The colour came and went in her expres- Bive face, the veins in her throat swelled with emotion; she could find nothing to say which was worth saying; when she spoke in the words of the poets she was eloquent, but when she could only look in her own heart and long to speak, how poor the seemed to herself, how dull and dumb! The intensity of the happiness hi9 presence brought with it in itself bewildered and alarmed her with a vague fear to which she could have given no name had she tried. She had been happy in her childhood upon Bonaventure, with the happiness of youth and health and vigour; the happiness of the fawn in the fern brake, of the swallow on the wing; unconscious, delightful, in- stinctive happiness in the mere sense of sentient life. But this happiness which she felt now was new to her, and closely allied to pain, and nervous as its twin sister, sorrow; she was afraid of it and mute. At last she broke the silence timidly: There was something I thought I would write to tell you because be is one of your friends, but then I thought it did not matter. It was only that M. de Bethune has been here twice or three tiD10S." I36thane!" echoed Othmar with astonishment and some displeasure. How came he here She told him, and added, He has come back on different days. Ho brought me a jewel once; it woe very handsome. It was because I attended to his horse's sprain; I asked him to take it back again and he did so. Since that he has brought me flowers. Those flowers are some of his." He looked where she looked and saw a group of hothouse blossoms of value and rarity. He felt an annoyance which he did not dissimulate. Do he and his flowers please you?" he asked, not wisely as he knew. I But the perfect candour of her eyes remained nnclouded. I do not think about him," she replied in that tone which was an echo of her free and fearless life upon the island. He is kind, and M. Rosse- lin says he is good. He is a great friend of her's, is he not ?" Of my wife's ?" said Othmar with irritation. Yes. She likes him; he is often with her; he is one of those persons whom groat ladies care to chain to their thrones." He had himself always had a vague jealousy of Gui de Bethune; the intimacy which his wife allowed him although, only, he knew, in accor- dance with the habits and usages of a woman of the world, yet was always more intimate than he cared to see. He knew the solidity and nobility of Bethune's character, and the hopeless devotion which had so long absorbed his heart, but some- times he thought that his wife might have found better ways of rewarding the one and of curing the other than the constant attendance on her which she permitted to a man who had adored her before the death of N^praxine and had offered her his hand after it. He had said little against it, because he had known how absurd and vulgar a passion jealousy had always seemed in her sight, but there had never been any cordiality of inter- course between himself and Bothune, and it irri- tated him to hear that Bethune of all men should; by an accident of sport, have found his way to Les Hameaux. The idea had caused him uneasiness, and, asso- ciated with the remembrance of Blanche de Laohj made him conscious that the secret of the Vale of Chevreuse had been very rashly and consciously kept by him from his wife. The Due was a, man of chivalrous honour and fastidious delicacy he would in all likelihood feel bound to respect a secret which he had accidentally suppressed, but the influence of Nadege was unbounded with him; and if by any chance through the malice of ;Blanchette, or any other means, her suspicions Should be in any way aroused, she would turn the mind of Bethune inside out as easilyas a child can empty a bird's nest; He knew her great power over men, and the tenacity with which she would at times follow out an idea if it were one which appeared to elude her, or which others thought to conceal from her. Does he know your story?" he asked with embarrassment: Have you mentioned me to him ?" Oh no!"—The colour flushed into her face, ihere was indignation in her denial. Do you ihink that I would talk of—of—of that time and :>f you ?" Her voice trembled a little over the last word: She added after a moment: He speaks of her sometimes—of vou never;" Ah j Othmar understood the meaning of that. though his companion did not: The admiration and loyalty with which her Visitor had spoken of a lady who was nothing to him had seemed even to her unworldly ignorance Something which Othmar would not like: She, WHO had only seen the homely lives of the toilers of the sea and soil, with their primitive passions and their single-minded ideas, did not dream, of the easy relations and the elastic opinions which exist in the great world. of the friendships which have all the grace of love without its fatigue and its bondage, of the influence which brilliant women can exercise over the minds and lives of ttien, without giving in return one iota of their Own freedom or feeling one pulse of tenderness; All those intricate motives, and half dissolute, half delicate, liberties which prevail in society were to her unknown, unimaginable. She could nder- stand that a man or a woman should die for Jove. or should in an hour of hatred slay what they ere jealous of or what had robbed them of their JOVE. All the simple, deep, undivided emotions of life were intelligible to her and aroused response in her nature, but the refinements of caprice and of fancy, the subtleties of cultured minds playing with passions which they were too languid and too hypocritical to share, these were altogether Unintelligible to her. In her short life she bad not lived with the rude labouring folk who had been her sole companions without knowing that men could be faithless and women also, But in the only people she had ever known fidelity had had a rude and literal inter- pretation, and infidelity had often been roughly chastised by a blow of the knife or the scourge of rope's end. All the refined gradations of incon- stancy in the great world were wholly unimagina- ble by her. You will have to live ten years more before you can play in Sardou's pieces," Rosselin had laid one day to her; as yet you must remain with the poets, with the eternal children, with the fcternal Naturkinder." Perhaps," Rosselin had added to himself," she Will never be able to play Dora, or Frouf rou, only J.drienne Lecouvreur, or Marie Stuart. She has a character cast on broad, bold antique lines; simple nd profound feelings alone are natural to her. The Intricacies of complex emotion, and the contempt born of analysis, are not intelligible to her. She Would understand why the Duchesse de Septments throws the cup down so violently in k'Etran- •ere,' but she would not understand why Froufrou Vacillates so helplessly between her family and ber lover." She looked wistfully now at Othmar, afraid that had displeased him, yet urged on by the un- conquerable attraction which the character of his "lfe exercised over her: Why has she so much power over people ?" asked in a low voice. My wife ?" asked Othmar, who was absorbed his own thoughts. How can I tell you, my AEAR? Perhaps she has it because she does not about it; perhaps bacause all men seem to e1' to be fools; perhaps because nature has mad. cleverer than we are; how can I tell you? 'HERE are persons born into this world ^JTH A magnetic power over the minds of others: is one of them. You have seen it yourself; Was an utter stranger to you, yet she said but words to you, and you followed her, and all pieceful, and innocent, and happy life went tb Ðie like a child's sand city before the tide of sea. She can always do that. She has done it Million times. She has done it with this man *°N speak of; she looked at him once years and OI*8 aS°i AND he has never been free any more. «IER women hardly exist for him. He would rrefer to bo wretched following her shadow than BE happv where she was not. There are others "^9 him——" T face of Damaris grew troubled and embar- d there was a sound of indignation in her oce AS she said: But since she is your wife ?" ,YTHNIAR laughed a little bitterly. AH, MY dear child!—you belong to another JJ^LD THAN ours. You have seen amongst your °F and your fruit-sellers a kind of union FTIAT UR' WHICH IS called marriage, and which ^ER I?8 *^0 woman toil all day for her children and house, and grow grey on one hearthstone, a.nd live out her life with the sun shining on one narrow field. You do not understand that when a great lady does a man the honour to accept his hand in marriage she retains her own complete immunity from all obligations whatever; she only remains beside him on the tacit condition that he shall submit to all her terms; she makes his houses brilliant, she amuses herself, and he can do the same if nature have not made him too dull; she has a number of friendships and interests with which he has nothing to do; and if his heart remain unsatisfied, that is nothing to her-he can take it elsewhere." There was the bitterness of personal feeling in the words spoken, as if in impersonal generalisation His hearer did not penetrate all their meanings but she felt the personal offence and dissatisfaction which were in them, and they filled her with a wistful and sympathetic sorrow. She did not understand. How could people be so rich, so great, so beautiful, have so much power in their hands, and so much love at their command, and yet be for ever so restless, so weary, so dissatisfied) Her heart hardened itself more utterly than erer against this woman who had such empire, and used it with such cruelty who was so beloved, and so contemptuous of love; who bore his name, dwelt in his heuses, could see him when she would, and yet seemed to give him no more rest or kind- ness than she gave a stranger passing in the street. The reasons of it were all too intricate and too subtle for her mind to be able to guess one half of them. In her own simplicity of phrase she would have said only that he was unhappy, which would not have covered one half or one tithe of the truth; but that scanty knowledge was enough to make all her own intensity of gratitude and devotion to him yearn with longing to console him, and sink heartsick before its own impotency to do so. All through the months in which he had been absent she had thought of him with wistful memories, vague, troubled thoughts, of which 1161 was the centre and ideal. The remembrance of his light, grave kiss upon her brow had thrilled through her with a magical force, banishing child- hood. All her warm and passionate heart, rich aa the fruits of her native land, was given to him unasked, unconscious of all it gave. Never in any hour of her empire over him had the woman to whom he had given up all he possessed, his past, his present, and his future, known one single pulse of such love for him as filled the whole nerve and soul and nature of Damaris Herarde. She would have gone blindfold wherever he had led. She would have died happy if gathered one moment to his breast. But as yet she knew it not. As yet her own heart was a sealed book to her. To him it was open he could read on it what he would; but he was unwilling to read. Have we not done her harm enough," he asked himself, "that I should do her this last, this greatest ? Shall I bind her to me in her youth and her ignorance when I can but give her, what ?—an hour of my time, a fragment of my thoughts, th" cold hospitality of a heart which has been swept empty by another woman ?" He looked at her where she stood, with the grey light of the pale day powerless to dull or take away the warmth and depth of colour, the strength and grace of outlinu from the form and face. The shining curls, the luminous eyes, the mouth like the bud of the pomegranate, the warm, soft cheeks with the bright blood pulsing in them, they were just what they had been in the sea wind and the sun of the south; the pallor and cold of the north had had no dominion over them. She had the triple beauty of youth, of health, of genius. There was the lavish glory of the spring- time in her, as in the April fields when Nature flings down flowers at every step. She should have been Heliodora to be crowned with white violets and blue hyacinths by the singer of Gadara, and he—if he had loved her, he might have opened his arms to her; but he looked in his own soul, and no love of any kind was there. Should he dare to offer her pale pity, mere ten- derness, the fatigue of passions tired and chilled by another ? What more unfair than for one weary and world-worn to lay his head upon the warm, white breast of youth when he no more could dream there any of the dreams youth loves and love begets.' Damaris was perplexed and pained because he stayed so brief a time with her, for the low winter sun, already when he came so near to its last hour above the grey and purple of the plains, was still sinking red and dim in a western sky of smoke- like vapour when he rose to leave her and return to Paris. She vaguely felt that there was some reserve between them, that all he thought was not expressed, that all he desired was not said. In her ignorance of the waywardness and con- tradictions of the hearts of men she could only think that he was angered with her for her persis- tency in a career which he had told her was not a happy or & wise one. To her it seemed that he had every right over her life, since without him she must have perished miserably amongst the un- noticed misery of the great city in which he had found her. "You are not vexed that I was reciting the speeches of Dona Sol?" she asked him timidly, trying to find out what he wished. II Vexed ? Surely not," he answered her, I un- derstand that you still cling to this one thought; and since the ambition of it is so strong in you, it is, no doubt, best that you should give it an undi- vided devotion. We do nothing well that we do half-heartedly." Does he tell you what he thinks of me?" she asked, still timidly. Rosselin said Othmar, M Yes, he thinks greatly of your natural gifts; You content him, which is a rare thing, for he is hard to please. He believes you may move that dull, stupid, imitative mass which calls itself the worldi I have never heard him say otherwise or say less. But neither Rosselin or I are gods, my child we can push open the gates for you, but we cannot control what you may find beyond the gates;" You mean ■?" I mean that his experience and influence will enable you to face the world with every advantage, will enable you to begin where others only arrive after long years of toil and of probation i but when he has done that he will have done all that he can do. The rest will lie with all the blind forces which govern human fates." There was something in the words, gently as they were spoken, which chilled her eager faiths and sanguine hopes, and brought back to her that fear of the future* that dread of the imprisonment of the art world, which had moved her after the recital of the Conservatoire. T T I begin to understand! she said, with an im- petuous sigh; "It will be a slavery where I thought it a conquest. But—but-^could notl have one triumph and then tome back to the country and the quiet of it if I wished? Could I not make Paris crown me once, even if I gave the crown back to them ? Whv not ?-—=" Because, drinking once, everyone drinks as long as a drop is left of that amari aliquid (bitter somothing) called Fame. If you once taste triumph you will never return to obscurity; Did I not tell you so in the summer ? Besides, why should you wish to triumph at all unless it be to give over your life to art ? I do not The face of Damaris grew red anc overcast. I want her to know that I need not be despised, she said in a very low voice, through which there ran the thrill of a deep and sombre meaning: Othmar started, and himself coloured, at the menace which there was in the sound of her voice. "You mean Naddge?" he said abruptly: Damaris gave a gesture of assent. >, She was ashamed of what she had said, but it had escaped her almost involuntarily; He was silent; He was uncertain what to say: There was a sense of reluctance in him to speak at all of his wife to her; Commonplace words could have been said in plenty; but these he did not chose to em- ploy; He understood that the whole strong and ardent soul of this child was on her lips; it was not a time for trivial platitudes, for empty phrases, whieh in moments of great emotions seem more unkind than blows: If I be your friend, my dear, you must not think of her as your enemy," he said at length. She admires enius-ib is the one thing which commands her respects; if you show her you pos- sess it she will be a better friend to you than I can ever be." I do not want her friendship;" Damaris had grown pale she spoke with impe- tuous and almost fierce meaning; the darker in- stincts which were in the hot blood of the Berardes were aroused; she did not pause to consider her own words. It grew dark without: the sun had how sunk below the horizon the red light of the fire on the hearth reached bet' and shone in her auburn curls, on her shining, sombre eyes, on her lips shut close with scorn. She looked at him from under her level brows. You care for her very much ?'* she said sud- denly. Othmar was silent some moments. How much or how little should he show of his real thoughts to this child, who loved him, and whom he could not love in any way as she deserved ? He thought she had merited candour at the least from him; Yes, dear, I care for her very much, to use your words. She has been all the world to me; in a sense she will be so always. Every great passion has a certain immortal element in it; at least I think so. She has been the one woman for which I would have sinned any sin, have done any folly, have given up place, and name, and honour, and all I had, if she had wished. No one loves twice like that. Many never love so Once. I do not pretend that life with her has been all I hoped for those exquisite dreams are never realised i human nature does not hold the possibility of their reali- tion. I disappoint her, perhaps, as much as she chills me; it is inevitable, and is no one's fault that I know of the fault lies with human nature." He paused. Damaris stood where she had been before, but the light had died down from the wood fire, and the shadows of the twilight were upon her face. Her open-air, bird.like, flower-like life upon the island had made all life seem very simple to her, a thing regulated like the coming and going of the boats between the shores, broad and plain as the smooth sea sand of the mainland. All sud- denly she saw that it was a thing of intricate mysteries, of cruel perplexities, of fathomless emotions, with whose disquietude and disillusion the learned played as with knotted threads which it amused them to disentangle, but before whose impenetrable secret the simple broke their heart. Othmar continued with an effort, leaning against the side of the shut casement grown dark with the descending gloom of coming night. I cannot make you comprehend, my dear, with how great a passion I have loved her. You may haveheILrd of one who bore my name before her, one who died on your own shores. She was lovely in body and soul, and had no fault that ever I saw and would have died for me—did die for me, per- chance—and to her I was without any love, always because my whole soul was set upon another woman. And that other is now my wife. And her, I tell you, I have loved in such wise that I believe no other love worthy the name will ever arise in me again. I do not say that it is impos- sible, for no man knows but so I think. She has disdained the place she took, and has left it empty, but no other can fill it after her. She hasmado that impoRsible-" The tears rose to his eyes as he spoke. He could not think of the woman be had worshipped, and whose heart he thought had never had one pulse of actual love for him, without a pain which over- mastered him. He had never spoken of all he felt for her to any living being throughout the years in which her influence had reigned over his life. Damaris looked at him in the deepening shadows which hid her own face, A passionate pain com- municated itself to her as she listened. Is it she who does not care, then ?" she asked. Her voice was h irried and had a tremor in it. God knows!" said Othmar. No; I think she does not." He sighed wearily; his reserve once broken through, it was a kind of solace to him to speak out aloud the disappointment mute for so long, for so long unconfessed even to himsslf. "It is not her fault," he continued "nature made her so. We all seem to her weak and sensual fools. Her own'mind is so cultured and so hypercritical that men far greater than I am would seem to her poor creatures. She needed a Ciesar to share his empire with her, and she would have laughed even at him because his laurels would not have covered his scanty locks! She would have always seen his baldness, never his greatness. She is made like that. She does not care; why should she ? We care for her. But that is no reason. Perhaps she would regret it if the children she has had by me died, but if I died to-morrow I doubt if the world would look dark to her. It certainly would not look empty!" He spoke bitterly, with truth and irony so inter- mingled in his unconsidered words that it was far beyond the powers of his inexperienced hearer to distinguish between them all she felt was that he was unhappy, yet that his soul was set irrevoca- bly upon this woman who had wedded him only to torment, to elude, to disappoint, to humiliate him. She did not know enough of men and women and their passions to understand all that he meant in all its fulness of mortification, but she could understand that he suffered with a kind of suffering for which it was impossible for anyone to console him, and which severed him from her- self by a vast and cruel distance of which she became suddenly sensible as she had never been before. His presence was sweet to her with a sweetness which was akin to anguish; the sound of his voice thrilled through all her being; the touch of his hand was a magnetism over her, charming her to a sense of ecstacy in which she all power of will; but she was powerless to banish for an hour the remembrance of this other woman, she had no sorcery which could undo and re-place the magic of the past; she did not think this or feel this because her thoughts and her feel- ings were all confused and inarticulate, but it was so, and an immense consciousness of loneliness and impotency weighed like lead upon the warmth and buoyancy of her soul. She was nothing to him. They were alike silent, standing in the dusky windows with the cold, dark country in its wintry silences stretched without. It is best she should know he thought with a sense of cruelty and ingratitude. It seemed to him terrible that she should waste all the treasures of her lovely youth, of her fresh emotions, of her original thoughts, of her awakening passions, upon one who could not give her even one single heart's beat of love in answer. He stooped and kissed her on her shining curls. Good night, my child," he said with pitying tenderness. Good night. Think of me as your friend, always your friend, and if you see me seldom believe that it is not due to want of sym- pathy, but only because—because He paused, seeking for words which could render his meaning clear to her without wounding her by too plain and blunt a warning against her own heart." Because I meet you TOO late to be ftble TO pare for you," he thought; II BECAUSE have OATHING TA give you worth your qrealQfI "pq youp YPSJTH I because I would give YON more if I popld, BUT cannot; BECAUSE my heart j§ J||I§ A giay§, H is too full of its own dead to be able TO let in the living!" But he could not say this, wmJg fcayg been too harsh; sq h said SQTLIIRG; He hf HFXCFT more on her Qfh THICK HAJP HJy PPJDJY, left hep, WHILE 4g DARKNESS OF pjg|>| GAUIPFEFI around hep, AND pyep the a);ent, Mdq snow of the winr began TO FOIL, DRIFTING pøisø lessiy before a NORTHERN wind,

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